A Confusing Revulsion from the Finnish Champion: 'I Wish I Had Lost'
Finnish high jumper Daniel Kosonen expresses disappointment in his performance despite winning the national championship.
Finnish high jumper Daniel Kosonen won the national championship with a height of 209 cm but expressed deep dissatisfaction with his performance, criticizing it as shameful and only deserving of junior-level competitions. Kosonen’s win not only marked his first indoor championship in 2019 but also placed him at 101 in the European season rankings. In a post-competition statement, he shared that he felt he deserved to lose given the quality of his jumps, indicating that he felt the competition felt subpar to his standards.
Despite achieving a milestone by winning the national title, Kosonen's mindset reflected a personal struggle with expectations as he highlighted that he easily cleared the winning height, but failed to clear the next height of 213 cm. He stated that his jumps felt poor and that he could have cleared the higher bar with minimal effort, suggesting he believes he has more potential than his recent performances indicate. His previous records stand at 224 cm outdoors and 223 cm indoors, which highlight a significant gap in what he views as acceptable performance versus what he delivered during this championship.
An underlying factor to Kosonen's lackluster performance appears to be an ongoing injury that may have affected his ability to compete at his full capacity. The combination of personal aspirations and physical limitations has led him to question the merit of his victory at the national level, suggesting that he regards winning with such unsatisfactory results as a hollow achievement. This attitude may also reflect broader pressures faced by athletes in competitive sports, where personal expectations often shape their perceptions of success and failure.