In a personal narrative, Anna Håkansson shares her lifelong struggle with body image and her strong desire for life's indulgences, particularly the traditional Swedish dessert known as semla. Historically associated with joy and celebration, semlas have been a staple of Swedish culture, especially during Fat Tuesday (Fettisdagen). Despite the cultural significance of the pastry, Håkansson's relationship with semlas has shifted dramatically this year due to her new use of appetite-suppressing medications, which raises questions about identity and desire.

Håkansson describes the exuberant atmosphere surrounding the consumption of semlas, with people queuing outside bakeries months in advance to partake in this ritual. However, this year’s experience feels different for her. The joy she used to derive from eating semlas has been replaced by a sense of loss and confusion about who she is without the desire for these cherished treats. The contrast between societal indulgence during the semla season and her personal experience highlights the impact of modern dietary practices on individual and cultural identities.

As she navigates these changes, Håkansson confronts broader societal themes of body image, pleasure, and the effects of contemporary health trends on tradition. This introspective piece serves not only as a commentary on her personal journey but also reflects on the cultural implications of altering one’s relationship with food and the traditions that surround it, inviting readers to consider the delicate balance between enjoyment and societal pressures.