In the latest episode of the podcast 'Olipa kerran,' hostess Shirly Karvinen opens up about her tumultuous first relationship, highlighting the painful experience of being betrayed. She reveals that during the initial six months of their dating, her boyfriend had a continuous affair, which she discovered, leading to deep feelings of insecurity and jealousy. Despite knowing about his infidelity, Karvinen remained in the relationship for nearly three years, referring to it as 'toxic.'

Karvinen nostalgically describes her ex-boyfriend as her first love, but the relationship was marred by incidents of dishonesty and emotional turmoil. She recounts feelings of extreme jealousy and a fierce desire to hurt her partner emotionally during their conflicts. She acknowledges her own flaws during this time, admitting to poor behavior fueled by her insecurities regarding their relationship dynamics.

One of the most vivid memories she shares involves a particular argument where she acted in a hurtful manner towards him, despite the initial hopes of a loving relationship. This reflection not only reveals her emotional struggles but also explores themes of young love, betrayal, and the difficult road to self-awareness and healing following a toxic relationship. This discussion sheds light on the consequences of infidelity and its impact on personal growth and self-image.